Do you ever dream bigger than you can define?

Lately I have been thinking about my career. I love what I do, but there's something missing. I have a dream, but I don't know how to define it. That's so weird because usually, I would say, well if you cannot define it, then you don't know what it is. But I do know what it is. Maybe I should say I don't know what to call it. I want to do what I'm doing either on a larger more meaningful scale, or in a way that hasn't been done before. I want to do things like write, speak, present, mentor, consult, teach. I want to use everything I have learned in my career and do those things. What is that even called? How do I make that a career? I'm reaching that age where it's either time to settle in and accept that this is my life, which isn't really a bad thing, or step out of my comfort zone and move on to bigger things. I have the experience, the knowledge, and finally the confidence! Ok, maybe not ALL the confidence because I still haven't gone out there and figured out wtf I can do to make all of this a reality. 

I feel this longing to reach new heights and connect with more people. I want to be able to network, attend conferences with likeminded people and people who can teach me things I never knew I wanted to learn. Again, the question....how do I get there? How do I do that? Do I "just do it" as Nike says? I've always been careful--too careful and when I look back I wonder if I missed out on great opportunities because I was too cautious. I don't know but living a life of "what ifs" isn't productive. I need to focus on what I am going to do--what I'm doing to do NOW. I just need to figure that out. 

If you have any suggestions, let me know. Does anyone even read this? I started out as a "I love routines" blog and somehow morphed into "what is my life and other random musings". Then I transferred some other blog entries from an old site (don't ask) and they're out of order, which if you read from the beginning, makes me insane. 

On that note, I'll leave you to ponder what I've said here.
Until next time....