Anxiety

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Anxiety

My insides feel like they're boiling. I want to crawl out of my skin. Antsy, can't breathe, can't sit still, can barely think. I took a pill. Please let it kick in soon. I hate that I can't calm down without a pill. It seems so silly, but sometimes I just can't. Ok, always. Ugh. Anxiety and worry live inside me and often make me feel inferior. I feel worthless and the urge to crawl into the darkness and never come out, is so strong. I want to sleep forever. I want to feel nothing. Numbness, tingling, nothingness. Whatever's left of my "rational" mind, is in shreds. My mind is a jumble of urges to flee everywhere, everything.
Please make it stop. Pills. Yay.